Opening Up - The Influence on the Pandemic Isolation and a challenging Day Job

I have been absent for a few weeks due to some issues with my day job and my everyday life. The truth is that calling massive anxiety problems issues it probably the understatement of the century. I am a person who loves to be active and to take on projects and in addition I love to help others. This leads to me overwhelming myself. Since the beginning of the year I have struggled therefore, a lot. 

In addition to this, the isolation due to the pandemic has taken its toll as well. Whenever we watch the news, we hear how tough the pandemic is on the elderly or families with children, but a lot of people forget about us singles. This is not going to be a post about Covid-19 but a post about what has been affecting my life in last few weeks. However I feel the need to point out that if you are single and due to the pandemic work from home, isolation might hit you harder than people are aware off. During the high time of the lockdown, when you were only allowed to leave your house with an important reason, I would spend several days without leaving my apartment and without seeing another human being in real life. I still take this virus very seriously and as such have isolated myself to do my part in fighting the pandemic. But I now understand why isolation is a punishment in jail. 

Therefore I have found myself in need of having to make decisions as to what in my life I could change without giving up a part of my heart. Unfortunately I couldn't give up my dayjob as I need to pay the bills, but I have decided to take on a new task, which while not being as prestigious might prove less stressful. In addition I made some changes in my personal life to hand over tasks I used to do myself but I felt I could delegate. 

Once more I realized one thing: Writing is an important part of my life, I need to nourish, as it helps me stay focused, balanced and it is essential to maintaining my mental health. I have decided therefore to give writing an even bigger priority in my life, as it is part of what makes life worth living for me. In simple word, writing is what makes me happy and what I hope will one day become a full time job. 

Despite not publishing lately I have been collecting idea for new blogposts, some of which might be a little controversial but also open up interesting discussions. I encourage everybody to comment on the posts, especially if you disagree with me. I simply ask to follow three guidelines: 

  1. No name calling or insults.  This blog is a safe place for likeminded people. It is completely ok to disagree as long as it is done in a polite manner. 
  2. No commenting off-topic. I have had to remove some comments in the past that were basically promotion for other blogs and just incoherent rambling. If you want to do a cross promotion, send me a dm on twitter and we will discuss it. 
  3. No spamming. 

I will start again to post every Saturday night and will also post some original stories and the progress on my book, which I can't wait to finally see in print. 

Although the last weeks have been tough, I feel like I have won an important victory. Not only have I managed to pull myself out of a mental health crisis by applying everything I have learnt in therapy but I have also finally made some scary decisions. I regained focus on my life and finally found the courage to pursue what makes me happy. 


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